I’ve always wanted to be a runner. It just seems like such a cool, elegant way to stay in shape. I psyche myself up. Get all the appropriate clothing and gadgets and set out to run. Within 5 minutes I’m ready to stop. I slug along half walking half jogging. I do this for about a week or so then I just stop all together. I suck at running.
Meal prep has the same appeal to me. I get all excited about the efficiency and ability to plan ahead. I write long, poetic blog posts about it. I stick with it the first week then the wheels fall off. I’m not even stepping on the scale right now. I lost about 9lbs in the first week doing meal prep, but I know that was mostly water from my several month over-carbing as I finished up grad school. I am pretty sure I’ve maintained that loss (just by the way my clothes are fitting), but I am too scared to look at the scale right now. Who needs that negativity in their life?
But here I am again. At the keyboard ready to give you all kinds of advice and recommendations that sound great when I plan the post, but ultimate stop following myself (kinda like my running). I’m not going to say I suck at it or that I have failed. It just is. Trying to keep it real here. I know it’s what I need to be doing. I know, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that there is no other way for me to lose weight and remain healthy, but it is frustrating.
Yesterday I was in Walmart. I was looking for the Chobani low-sugar yogurt. I like it and it helps keep my gut microbiota in check. Walmart didn’t have the low-sugar kind. I must have spent 20 minutes reading the backs of yogurt containers. Holy moly! I’d say 95% of yogurt on the shelf is low-fat and super high sugar (over 20g of carbs per little container). I even looked at the kid yogurt. That just made me downright sad. Sugar in the yogurts marketed for kids was even higher. I saw one brand that had “healthy” plastered all over it and it had 44g of sugar per serving. 44 grams! That is just criminal. Ultimately I found Siggi’s triple cream that had 10g of carbs and it turned out to be a great choice, but not after getting more and more frustrated with the choices on the shelf.
Right now I am just being lazy. Since finishing school, I am enjoying the heck out of coming home after work and doing absolutely nothing or surfing YouTube or reading or simply playing with my cat. The last thing I want to do is cook. So I don’t. I end up snacking on cheese, peanut butter, 100-calorie Kind bars and other “crap.” Occasionally I’ll nuke a bag of brussel sprouts and put a dollop of butter on them. The other night, I just ate a bag of cauliflower with Trader Joe’s Everything But the Bagel seasoning. Not awful stuff, but certainly not great.
So instead of giving you advice in this post, I’m just going to leave it at this. Eh. It happens. I am not giving up. I am just bleh right now when it comes to food prep. I am tired of eating the same things over and over and I am tired of the expense and extraordinary efforts it takes to make tasty low-carb meals. I am also getting a bit tired of meat. Maybe I’ll get my cooking mojo back soon, but, for now, I’m going to have some fried cheese and watch YouTube videos.