Cleared for Take Off!
I met with the psychiatrist this week. He has to clear me for surgery and he did. So I’m getting to the point I need to decide soon if I’m going to do the surgery. While I am starting intermittent fasting (just baby steps for now – 12 hours fasts twice a week) and I’m down 7lbs (officially) in less than 3 weeks, I worry that this is just another fad and that I’ll end up gaining more back. I was hoping I’d get to a point that I’d think – Yes! I’m having the surgery! Or no, I can do it this time! But I really don’t have confidence I can do it this time. That said, no matter what I’m going to have to make major and significant changes for the rest of my life.
Dr. Fung says bariatric surgery is really just “forced fasting” and it really is. And I hear over and over that bariatric surgery is a tool – like any other tool – to help the process but it is not a magic bullet.
So, I’m still on the proverbial fence. Perhaps a great epiphany will sway my decision. In the meantime, I’m doing my best to stick to 3, no more than 4 meals a day and no snacking in between. I’ve been successful with this for the last 3 weeks. I have had alcohol, but very little. That one is going to be tough to give up. Not because I’m an addict, but it’s just the thought that I have to give it up. I know I should give up bread, but I don’t have to give up bread. I have to give up alcohol. I enjoy a good martini or single malt scotch or bourbon from time to time.
My next appointment is in little over a week – with the nutritionist. I believe once she signs off on my food journal I will meet with the surgical team. Maybe that will help me make the decision.